`But I never thought it ud be so for worse as this, said poor Mrs Tulliver, with the strange, scared look that had come over her of later, `and my poor father gave me away... and to come on so all at once...

She felt her father beginning to tremble - his voice trembled too, as he said, after a few moments,

`Ah... Elizabeth Dodson... its eighteen year since I married her...

`Yes, he died of apoplexy nearly a year ago; I remember hearing you say you had to pay money for him; and he left his daughters badly off - one of them is under-teacher at Miss Firnisss where Ive been to school, you know...

Then seating himself and laying down his stick, while Luke left the room, he looked round again.

`Everything is sold, father; but we dont know all about the mill and the land yet, said Tom, anxious to ward off any question leading to the fact that Wakem was the purchaser.

`Have they sold me up, then? he said, more calmly, as if he were possessed simply by the desire to know what had happened.

`Its a long while since you had the dispute with Dix, father, said Tom. `I remember your talking about it three years ago, before I went to school at Mr Stellings. Ive been at school there three years; dont you remember?

`No, dear father! Maggie burst out, entreatingly, `its a very long while since all that: youve been ill a great many weeks - more than two months - everything is changed.

`You may do as you like wi me, Bessy, he said in a low voice, `In been the bringing of you to poverty... this worlds too many for me... Im nought but a bankrupt - its no use standing up for anything now.

`O father, dear father! said Maggie, who thought that terrible word really represented the fact. `Bear it well - because we love you - your children will always love you - Tom will pay them all - he says he will, when hes a man.

`No, father, said Tom, `the note was burnt.

`Mother, said Tom, severely, `this is not the time to talk about that.

`Father, said Tom, `I dont agree with my mother or my uncles, and I dont think you ought to submit to be under Wakem. I get a pound a week now, and you can find something else to do when you get well.

`Ay, ay, Luke, stop a bit, sit down, said Mr Tulliver, pointing his stick towards a chair, and looking at him with that pursuant gaze which convalescent persons often have for those who have tended them, reminding one of an infant gazing about after its nurse. And Luke had been a constant night-watcher by his masters bed.

IT was a clear frosty January day on which Mr Tulliver first came downstairs: the bright sun on the chestnut boughs and the roofs opposite his window had made him impatiently declare that he would be caged up no longer; he thought everywhere would be more cheery under this sunshine than his bedroom; for he knew nothing of the bareness below, which made the flood of sunshine importunate, as if it had an un9９ｌib•nｅtfeeling pleasure in showing the empty places and the marks where well-known objects once had been. The impression on his mind that it was but yesterday when he received the letter from Mr Gore was so continually implied in his talk, and the attempts to convey to him the idea that many weeks had passed and much had happened since then had been so soon swept away by recurrent forgetfulness, that even Mr Turnbull had begun to despair of preparing him to meet the facts by previous knowledge. The full sense of the present could only be imparted gradually by new experience - not by mere words which must remain weaker than the impressions left by the old experience. This resolution to come downstairs was heard with trembling by the wife and children. Mrs Tulliver said Tom must not go to St Oggs at the usual hour - he must wait and see his father downstairs: and Tom complied, though with an intense inward shrinking from the painful scene. The hearts of all three had been more deeply dejected than ever during the last few days. For Guest and Co. had not bought the mill: both mill and land had been knocked down to Wakem, who had been over the premises and had laid before Mr Deane and Mr Glegg, in Mrs Tullivers presence, his willingness to employ Mr Tulliver, in case of his recovery, as a manager of the business. This proposition had occasioned much family debating. Uncles and aunts were almost unanimously of opinion that such an offer ought not to be rejected when there was nothing in the way but a feeling in Mr Tullivers mind, which, as neither aunts nor uncles shared it, was regarded as entirely unreasonable and childish - indeed as a transferring towards Wakem of that indignation and hatred which Mr Tulliver ought properly to have directed against himself for his general quarrelsomeness and his special exhibition of it in going to law. Here was an opportunity for Mr Tulliver to provide for his wife and daughter without any assistance from his wifes relations, and without that too evident descent into pauperism which makes it annoying to respectable people to meet the degraded member of the family by the wayside. Mr Tulliver, Mrs Glegg considered, must be made to feel, when he came to his right mind, that he could never humble himself enough: for that had come which she had always foreseen would come of his insolence in time past `to them as were the best friends hed got to look to. Mr Glegg and Mr Deane were less stern in their views, but they both of them thought Tulliver had done enough harm by his hot-tempered crotchets, and ought to put them out of the question when a livelihood was offered him: Wakem showed a right feeling about the matter - he had no grudge against Tulliver. Tom had protested against entertaining the proposition: he shouldnt like his father to be under Wakem; he thought it would look mean９9ｌｉb•ｎｅｔ-spirited; but his mothers main distress was the utter impossibility of ever `turning Mr Tulliver round about Wakem or getting him to hear reason - no, they would all have to go and live in a pigsty on purpose to spite Wakem who spoke so as nobody could be fairer. Indeed, Mrs Tullivers mind was reduced to such confusion by living in this strange medium of unaccountable sorrow, against which she continually appealed by asking, `O dear, what have I done to deserve worse than other women? that Maggie began to suspect her poor mothers wits were quite going. `Tom, she said, when they were out of their fathers room together, `we must try to make father understand a little of what has happened before he goes downstairs. But we must get my mother away. She will say something that will do harm. Ask Kezia to fetch her down, and keep her engaged with something in the kitchen.

`Ah, my lad, said Mr Tulliver, shaking his head slowly, `but whats broke can never be whole again: it ud be your doing, not mine. Then, looking up at him, `Youre only sixteen - its an uphill fight for you - but you mustnt throw it at your father; the raskills have been too many for him. Ive given you a good eddication - thatll start you.

Kezia was equal to the task. Having declared her intention of staying till the master could get about again, `wage or no wage, she had found a certain recompense in keeping a strong hand over her mistress, scolding her for `moithering herself and going about all day without changing her cap and looking as if she was `mushed. Altogether this time of trouble was rather a Saturnalian time to Kezia; she could scold her betters with unreproved freedom. On this particular occasion there were drying clothes to be fetched in: she wished to know if one pair of hands could do everything indoors and out, and observed that she should have thought it would be good for Mrs Tulliver to put on her bonnet and get a breath of fresh air by doing that needful piece of work. Poor Mrs Tulliver went submissively downstairs: to be ordered about by a servant was the last remnant of her household dignities - she would soon have no servant to scold her.

He seemed to be pausing over the record of his sisters birth and marriage, as if it were suggesting new thoughts to him: them he suddenly looked up at Tom and said in a sharp tone of alarm--

Her husband fixed his eyes earnestly on her face.

The quarto Bible was laid open before him at the fly-leaf, and while he was reading with slowly-travelling eyes, Mrs Tulliver entered the room, but stood in mute surprise to find her husband down already and with the great Bible before him.

Mr Tulliver paused just inside the door, resting on Luke, and looking round him at all the bare places which for him were filled with the shadows of departed objects, the daily companions of his life. His faculties seemed to九_九_藏_书_网 be renewing their strength from getting a footing on this demonstration of the senses.

`Paid everybody? he said, with vehement agitation, his face flushing, and his eye lighting up. `Why... what... have they made me a bankrupt?

`Come next Lady Day, said Mrs Tulliver, going up to his side and looking at the page.

`Ay, sir, said Luke, as he gave his arm to his master, `youll make up your mind tot a bit better when youve seen iverything: youll get used tot. Thats what my mother says, about her shortness o breath - she says, shes made friends wit now, though she fought again it sore when it fust come on.

`Say no more, Tom, say no more: Ive had enough for this day. Give me a kiss, Bessy, and let us bear one another no ill-will: we shall never be young again... This worlds been too many for me.

`You must not be surprised to see the room look very bare downstairs, father, said Maggie, `but theres your chair and the bureau - theyre not gone.

`Hows the water now, eh, Luke? said Mr Tulliver. `Dix hasnt been choking you up again, eh?

`Ah? said her father, doubtfully, still looking in her face. But as soon as Tom began to speak he turned to look at him with the same inquiring glances, as if he were rather surprised at the presence of these two young people. Whenever his mind was wandering in the far past, he fell into this oblivion of their actual faces: they were not those of lad and the little wench who belonged to that past.

`Ah, he said, looking at a spot where his finger rested, `My mother was Margaret Beaton - she died when she was forty-seven - hers wasnt a long-lived family - were our mothers children - Gritty and me are - we shall go to our last bed before long.

`Ay, I thought not: he wont be in a hurry at that again, now Rileys been to settle him. That was what I said to Riley yesterday... I said...

Daylight on the Wreck

`Ah! he said, slowly, moving towards his chair, `theyve sold me up... theyve sold me up.

`Then we might stay here and get a living, and I might keep among my own sisters... and me been such a good wife to you and never crossed you from weeks end to weeks end... and they all say so... they say it ud be nothing but right... only youre so turned against Wakem.

`Why, now the mill and the lands all Wakems, and hes got everything in his hands, whats the use o setting your face against him? - when you says you may stay here, and speaks as fair as can be, and says you may manage the business, and have thirty shilling a week, and a horse to ride about to market? And where have we got to put our heads? We must go into one o the cottages in the village... and me and my children brought downs to that... and all because you must set your mind against folks till theres no turning you.

Mr Tulliver was resting in his chair a little after the fatigue of dressing, and Maggie and Tom were seated near him, when Luke ente藏书网red to ask if he should help master downstairs.

Mr Tulliver threw himself backward again, losing the child-like outward glance, under a rush of new ideas which diverted him from external impressions.

Mr Tulliver looked at them all three alternately with a startled gaze: the idea that much had happened of which he knew nothing had often transiently arrested him before, but it came upon him now with entire novelty.

`But perhaps you will live to see my pay everybody, father, said Tom, speaking with a great effort.

`You know what there is in the letter, father? said Tom, as he gave it to him.

`Ay, ay, he said, after a minute or two, `Ive paid a deal o money... I was determined my son should have a good eddication: Id none myself, and Ive felt the miss of it. And hell want no other fortin: thats what I say... if Wakem was to get the better of me again...

Maggie ran on before to see that all was right in the dreary parlour where the fire, dulled by the frosty sunshine, seemed part of the general shabbiness. She turned her fathers chair and pushed aside the table to make an easy way for him, and then stood with a beating heart to see him enter and look round for the first time. Tom advanced before him carrying the leg-rest, and stood beside Maggie on the hearth. Of those two young hearts Toms suffered the most unmixed pain, for Maggie, with all her keen susceptibility, yet felt as if the sorrow made larger room for her love to flow in, and gave breathing space to her passionate nature. No true boy feels that: he would rather go and slay the Nemean lion, or perform any round of heroic labours, than endure perpetual appeals to his pity for evils over which he can make no conquest.

`To be sure I do, said Mr Tulliver, rather angrily, `What o that? If Furley cant take to the property, somebody else can: theres plenty o people in the world besides Furley. But its hindering - my not being well - go and tell em to get the horse in the gig, Luke: I can get down to St Oggs well enough - Gores expecting me.

`Theyn left the big Bible, he said. `Its got everything in - when I was born and married - bring it me, Tom.

`O mother, said Maggie, `dont talk in that way.

Mr Tulliver leaned forward, resting his elbows on the arm-chair, and looking on the ground as if in search of something - striving after vanishing images like a man struggling against a doze. Maggie looked at Tom in mute distress - their fathers mind was so far off the present, which would by and by thrust itself on his wandering consciousness!Tom was almost ready to rush away, with that impatience of painful emotion which makes one of the differences between youth and maiden, man and woman.

Something in his throat half choked the last words - the flush which had alarmed his children because it had so often preceded a recurrence of paralysis, had subsided, and his face looked pale and 九九藏书tremulous. Tom said nothing; he was still struggling against his inclination to rush away. His father remained quiet a minute or two, but his mind did not seem to be wandering again.

`Father, said Maggie, laying her hand on his, `Dont you remember that Mr Riley is dead?

`Dead? said Mr Tulliver, sharply, looking in her face with a strange, examining glance.

`Ay, my little wench, but I shall never live twice oer.

`No, I know you wont let your poor mother speak... thats been the way all my life... your father never minded what I said... it ud have been o no use for me to beg and pray... and it ud be no use now, not if I was to go down o my hands and knees...

It was close at hand in a drawer, for he had often asked for it before.

`Poor Bessy, he said, `you was a pretty lass than - everybody said so - and I used to think you kept your good looks rarely. But youre sorely aged... dont you bear me ill-will ... I meant to do well by you... We promised one another for better or for worse...

Mr Tulliver turned his eyes on the page again, and presently said,

`Let her be, said Mr Tulliver. `Say what you mean, Bessy.

`Let us go - help me down, Luke - Ill go and see everything, said Mr Tulliver, leaning on his stick, and stretching out his other hand towards Luke.

Mr Tulliver had sunk back in his chair, trembling.

The thought of Wakem roused new vibrations, and after a moments pause he began to look at the coat he had on, and to feel in his side-pocket. Then he turned to Tom, and said in his old sharp way, `Where have they put Gores letter?

`Dont say so, Bessy, said Mr Tulliver, whose pride, in these first moments of humiliation, was in abeyance to the sense of some justice in his wifes reproach, `If theres anything left as I could no to make you amends, I wouldnt say you nay.

Good Luke felt, after the manner of contented hard working men whose lives have been spent in servitude, that sense of natural fitness in rank which made his masters downfall a tragedy to him. He was urged, in his slow way, to say something that would express his share in the family sorrow, and these words which he had used over and over again to Tom, when he wanted to decline the full payment of his fifty pounds out of the childrens money, were the most ready to his tongue. They were just the words to lay the most painful hold on his masters bewildered mind.

`Yes, father, said Tom, in answer to the gaze. `You neednt trouble your mind about business until you are quite well: everything is settled about that for the present - about the mill and the land and the debts.

`They havent come upo Moss for the money as I lent him, have they?

`Whats settled then? said his father, angrily.

`Dont you take on too much about it, sir, said Luke. `Youd ha paid iverybody if you could - thats what I said to Master Tom - I said, youd ha paid iverybody, if you could.

`No, sir, its all right.